Starting Back After Being Sick

I have been really sick for the past two weeks, as well as really busy! So obviously I haven’t been able to walk or do the treadmill, so my steps are down a lot. I had actually asked the doctor could I continue to exercise (as I coughed and spluttered in front of her!) and she said no that it would cause an attack with my chest as it was.

So I’m still a bit sick, but much much better so I need to start back again. I had got into a great habit of the treadmill, and I’m hoping that now I won’t be struggling to get the motivation back up to go again. Also my shins need to be built up slowly, and the last time I took a weeks break from the treadmill I found that when I went back on the treadmill I could feel the shin splints threatening early and I had to slow down. I’m hoping that doesn’t happen this time.

It is hard to get yourself back into the frame of mind to be organised and disciplined and motivated to be eating properly and exercising again. With the food, my main problem is that I haven’t batch cooked anything in advance so I’m struggling with my meals to get something healthy before I get too hungry and start picking at everything else (which happened last night because I didn’t get dinner before having to bring Q to a football match, I ate about 3 bars!). At least though I know this and therefore know that the way around this is to prepare and batch cook things for me to have immediately to hand when I am hungry.

The exercise is slightly different because I am not sure if what I am doing on the treadmill is enough. I am trying to add in little strength training bits along with my physio exercises, but again it is hard to find time to do. With the treadmill, I have to leave the house to go to the shed so it is a definite move, whereas with the physio stuff I am lying on the floor or somewhere in the house so I get interrupted or distracted much easier, or I am just too tired by the time I have done everything else. I just need to make sure that I fit them in in a more structured way, and that I keep making sure that my heartrate is rising in my treadmill sessions so I’m getting benefit from it.

Hoping now to start back to the treadmill this evening, even though we have a really busy after school day, with back to back activities – and I am already so exhausted I feel I can barely stay upright lol.

Immerse Myself in Health

I have decided to or realised that I need to, I’m not sure which, immerse myself in health and fitness if I want to stay focused.

I know that some people think that it is better be more balanced and not get obsessed with something. That is fine if you are able to keep yourself motivated and on track. However I am not great at that. I forget that I am being focused and motivated and I just fall off the wagon.

So I have decided to become obsessed with my health and fitness and wellbeing.

I realise that this could make me quite boring to other people, but hopefully it will be a relatively temporary thing and I’m hoping I can pretend to other people to be normal and talk about normal things to people. But in my own head, and with my own people, I am going to focus on staying on track. I have over three and a half stone left to lose, I can’t afford any slip ups or falling off the wagon. I need to stay on this and lose this weight, once and for all.

Already I have set up my Instagram (new to me) to be following people I find motivational and inspiring. I have discovered podcasts and I am listening to one particular person from start to finish, because I am finding myself nodding along with him and his experts on every single one of the podcasts. I like finding people who are of the same opinion to me and in health and weight loss, I believe in less processed foods and more whole foods, and a lot of the weight loss industry is angled at fat free and processed food. I am listening to podcast after podcast and telling my husband all about them and trying to think back to what was said to focus my attention on the positive steps to make.

I’m in it to win it this time! I am going to lose the weight and keep it off. There’ll be no more yo-yo-ing back up and down. I am losing this weight slow and steady with lifestyle changes and I will get it off and gone. I can do it, and I will do it, and I am in the process of doing it! 🙂

Finding time for my health

Every time I try to get fit and healthy, I break myself. Sounds a bit mad, but it happens every time. I have learned over the years that I need to go slowly and build myself up, and that I need to make sure I wear proper footwear. Somehow though every time I start to try to get fit, I fall apart. My shins, my knees, my sciatica and my hips and lower back. At different stages, different parts of me seem to fall apart!

Last year I got a fitbit and increased my steps, and made sure to wear my good running shoes on the treadmill – but because I was doing most of my steps off the treadmill, I got shin splints.

Another time I made sure not to increase my exercise amounts too fast (think you should only increase steps/distance by 10% a week or something like that), and I was being very careful about it – but was trying to build up to jogging and went to the local hilly woods and got shin splints. Seemingly the additional bending on the ankles/shins on inclines and hills aggrevates the shin splints.

I tried to use the exercise bike, and my knees stopped working. I started getting shooting pain through my knees when walking.

Thought maybe the cross-trainer would be a good option because there was no pounding the shin down like on the treadmill. I ended up damaging my Achilles tendon and my plantar fascis (the muscle running under your foot). I could barely walk for weeks, that was severely painful.

So I’m very conscious starting off exercising, because I want to be able to exercise consistently and make it a habit. So during the summer, I started on the treadmill. Before I started, I made sure that I got proper runners, and also got proper insoles fitted and molded for me. I was stretching a bit before and afterwards. I started very slowly, not pushing myself, and barely even going the speed of a fast walk. More a leisurely paced walk. I was enjoying the time out in the shed, with my music on, on my own. I built it up slowly, taking rest days even though I didn’t feel I needed them at the pace I was going. I was at the stage where I was going out for about a 30 minute walk on the treadmill, at least four or five times a week. I was loving it and really happy that I was actually making a habit of it, and that it was really good for my head as well. If I went out there in a bad mood, by the time I was coming in, I was happier again.

And then I went to the Electric Picnic festival with my eldest daughter. I wore wellies. I did put my proper insoles into the wellies, but they’re still flat rubber boots. I walked over 25,000 steps on the Saturday and over 18,000 steps on the Sunday. On the Tuesday I walked up to the playschool to collect Biz, and I wasn’t 5 minutes into the walk when I couldn’t actually put weight on my legs. Luckily I was able to use the buggy to put my weight on to help me, but it was so painful. So I knew I was going to have to take a break from walking. Annoying but I didn’t want them to get worse, and rest is the most important thing for them to heal.

I was back with the physio about my stomach and core muscle exercises that she’s working on with me, and asked about the shin splints. She gave me exercises for them and told me to stay off them for the two weeks until she saw me next. I did that, but wasn’t great at actually doing the physio exercises. I was back with her last week and she’s given me more, and again told me no treadmill.

But it’s almost a week since I was with her and I have probably done the exercises on two days. That’s not ok. This is important, and this is for me. I can’t start to walk for exercise again until I sort them out. The exercises aren’t particularly difficult, but it is just the fact of trying to find the time to do them. But I need to. I need to find time to prioritise my health, and sort my body out once and for all so that I can be fit and healthy.

So I have just done the full set of exercises tonight, and will make it a priority every day now going forward. Hopefully next week I’ll be able to say that she has noticed a difference and that I really have done them every day. (Fingers crossed!!)